I Am Sorry: I Just Can't Read Another Story of Loss... Today.

By: Emily Carrington EPLA Founder

The number of loss parents who have found their voice on social media is beautiful, inspiring, and empowering. As each one comes forward with a deeply personal and deeply painful story, our children are remembered and in a way given the voice they never had.

But sometimes, I have to keep scrolling. I just can’t read your story right now.

I can’t read your story because I can’t feel that pain again. The anxiety, the worry, the flood of emotions. I can’t read your story because I have been there. I have been you. Your story is my story and right now, scrolling through Facebook before bed, I need just a slight reprieve.

​I also can’t read your story because my mind fills with worry, regret, fear, and anxiety. I have lost three little ones inside me, and I can’t bear the thought of anything happening to the one down the hall, sleeping peacefully.

I can’t read your story. But I am glad you wrote it. I hope it touches someone. I hope it helped to heal you, just like writing my story has helped to heal me.

I am sorry I can’t read your story today.  It isn’t you. It is me. And dear fellow loss parent, I know you will have a day where you can’t read my story either. And that is okay, you don’t have to.

We are still in this together. And on the days I can’t read your story, know that I hear you, I see you, and I honor you, your little one, and your pain.

That no family suffers through miscarriage alone.

Emily Carrington is the founder of the EPLA and mother to four children.